So now I’m back at work after my paternity leave and I’d rather be scraping fish entrails off the deck of that boat in Jaws. Parenthood is a whole new ballgame and I’d much rather be at home with Raelyn and Jenn than anywhere else.

I’ve spent most of the morning sending and checking emails and voicemail. I’ve got a ton of catching up to do. Busy work is good because it distracts my brain from thinking about how bitterly I despise doing the work. Kind of a vicious circle, but I’ll get over it.

I have news of the weekend. Read the extended entry for more.

I’m really very energized this morning after seeing X2 yesterday. Braving rain and a newborn, Jenn, Raelyn, Dottie (my mother-in-law) and I went to the theatre. Bottom line: only two flair-ups of Rae cranking and an awesome flick. I was stressed in the beginning, but I’m better now. Being a new dad is sobering. The feeling you get when it’s YOUR child crying in a public place is such a mix of emberassment, concern and focused attention that’s it hard to concentrate on anything else.

The thing that sticks with me the most from the movie was a quote that ran before the previews. One of those ‘wisdom of the stars’ things. It was a George Burns quote that I’m going to horribly mangle here.

“I’d rather be a failure at something I love, than a success at something I hate.”

Right now, I hate my job and I want to make a radical jump to something else. I’m going to write my novel. Or short story. Or hit record. Or magazine article. Or sitcom pilot.

Maybe I’m just imbued with post-birth energy (and I didn’t even push her out). Raelyn is my new job and even if I fail at being perfect, I’m going to love every minute of it.

Sorry to ramble. It’s that kind of day.

Also, props to my cousin Nate for starting his own blog. I add him to the blogroll ASAP. Look for Jenn’s site soon. Gotta find a new host first. See previous entry for the why’s and where for’s.

Pax